While alone in our house, I suddenly missed my family in the Philippines. I talked to God and told about  my what ifs. There are many advantages and disadvantages living in both countries. I can say that I have a good life, way back in the Philippines even though I don't have my own car. When it comes to Japan it is easy to get all things that I want but there is emptiness in my heart. Unlike in the Philippines even though I can't get want I want I'm still happy. I'm with my family, cats, dogs and friends. Unlike here in Japan I have friends but we need to schedule everything before we meet. Life is hard when I started living here, I lost some of my pets, missed my parents birthdays, and family gathering. Did I regret getting married to a Japanese? No, because there is a reason for everything why I'm here in Japan. I will trust God no matter what happen. He was with me, He is with me and He will be with me.