Childless Marriage

Almost five years married but never have a child even one. There many things happened in five years. Family member interfered of having a child, pandemic and being new to a country. A lot of people encourage and helped me and my husband to have a baby. But no matter how we tried we failed. Got pressured from both family and friends when can we have a baby. Until one of us got tried because that body didn’t; respond anymore. At first it was hard for me because I want to have my own family. I prayed and surrendered it to God, that if it His will I’m happy and grateful that He entrusted me a life or lives. But if not I’m still happy and be grateful to Him because He knows and have better plan. I already have peace in my heart because I trust God. But people keep commenting about having a child and I should praying and fasting, serve the church and comparing women in the Bible that are barren. There is nothing wrong about it, but they keep insisting having a child to those things. On the first place I’m not barren. I feel that my marriage is not complete because we don’t have a child. That we are less because we don’t have a child.  It gives a lot of pressure and stress which is not good. It is not by choice not to have child or decided but I already surrendered it to God. Why do people think that I have little faith just because I don’t have child? Couples that don’t have a child are not worthy or less inferiority into the community? I’m just tired for people keep commenting and asking why we don’t have a child yet.